I can't believe its happening...I have come back to this space after many many many years....after a lonnnnngggggg Sabbatical.
It seems to me now...today.....like its time for my Sabbatical from writing has come to an end, finally.... although I though it never would. It has been years...really many years, since I have forgotten about this space, which I had created (which seems like another bygone era) for the sake of pursuing my writing interests when it was at its peak, those many years ago...slowly, the mundane life routines and priorities took over, first office work pressure, and then family especially Motherhood- my kids (who consume all my time even now) and finally the biggest obstacle - loss of interest due to lack of time... all of these have made my passion for writing take the farthest back seat possible, even better, chased my passion away from my mind.
Well, I can make umpteen excuses, blame many personal circumstances, for not pursuing what was once my dream, but those are all just a reason to convince myself that It's all OK for me to not pursue, let alone achieve, my dream, for the usual and monotonous way of life. I have always fancied and admired those women who are achievers (in any small or big way - they have made a difference from all the others), have proved to the world, that your dreams can come true, if you really work for it. But admiring other achievers alone will not help you to reach out to the place where you want to be. There has to be first vision, second dedication and commitment, above all hard work to achieve what you want in life. Not to mention, the many hurdles and challenges one has to endure on their way to Success. My passion (Writing) was always on something which was very much accessible for me, even amidst of my day to day life. To achieve it, I needn't sweat myself in the hot sun, I don't need to travel across the globe, I don't need to sacrifice family time in a big way, In fact I don't need to do anything out of the ordinary. All it requires is few minutes or hours on a regular basis to just sit in one place and start writing. Regular routine and practice of writing, will definitely help me improve and pursue what I want.
My dream to become an Author (at least start as an ameture Writer) has been thrawted by my own inabilities and inconsistencies. It's time to say Good bye to this Sabbatical where I have gone into a self lazy and self excuse mode for a long time. Over the years, I am able to see through clearly, running a family always takes our substantial time, but those achievers out there, too have had families and taken care of their little one's and at the same time, struggled and worked hard PARALLELY to make their dreams come true. Time is in abundance for achievers, but an excuse for losers. This is what I feel offlate. I can probably spare minimum half an hour on a regular basis to sit and write whatever I have in mind. Need not be a meaningful post. Let's say Speaking my Mind Out through words. Some scribblings and ramblings can still contribute to my dream of writing , keep my passion of writing in tact.
So, Now I have decided, its time to end my sabbatical from writing, and come back to work on what was once my dream. If writing again, can ignite and rekindle my passion more, then its worth starting the second innings, even though I have lost touch with it for a long time..
But this time, I need to remind myself time and again , that this space is solely for the purpose of my self satisfaction and not for the endorsement of others to accept me and my writings. So I have decided to just write...write...write...regularly for my own self. It can be anything - a story, a review, senseless scribbling, random thoughts, sharing experience etc etc...and now that my world has so reduced to attending to my tiny tots all the time, the best area where I thought I can start off, comfortably, without the big break coming its way, to crumble my confidence to get back, would be to translate all the bed time stories, which I have been narrating to my kids, based on their random choices (My girls ask for weird combo stories like tell me story of a tiger & mongoose, Gorilla & Monster, Lion & Porcupine, Giraffe & Mouse and Bingo, within seconds I would have made a silly story out of the random combo and start my narration) . These extempore stories have always made them very happy upon hearing. So to begin with, starting to write story for kids, I think will make me feel more relaxed and free and hope to give me that confidence to write (which I feel I have lost completely).
With a sense of euphoria, am happy to end this sabbatical from writing and start afresh again.... I am wishing myself loads to keep me going.
Good luck to me... Good luck for lots of self motivation to me...Good luck for lots of Perseverene to me...
The mantra am going to keep chanting and repeat to myself from now on would be... "Keep Going, Don't give up this time" :)
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